Monday, March 28, 2011

Back to the Track

Tomorrow I have 4oo's on the track scheduled, and I'm nervous. Its not the speed that scares me necessarily, or how many repeats that I plan to do, I am nervous because I have been avoiding the the track since 2002...and no that is not a typo. Often times my mind is weird and I have nostalgic feelings for things that may seem silly to others, and running on a track falls into this category. My very last track experience was my senior year in high school at the sectional meet where I was the anchor leg for the 4x400 relay. I wasn't very fast in high school and 400's were always difficult for me because my legs just couldn't move like the other girls, so running the anchor leg at a very competitive meet was daunting for me. I wasn't stressed because I knew that our relay was most definitely not making it to state, but I knew that this was going to be my very last high school running experience ever and I wanted to my story to have a great ending.

Well that race was one of the funniest races that I had ever ran, and I don't think that I'll forget it anytime soon. Our team managed to be way back in last place by the time I got the baton, which was probably because the relay was being run by a bunch of distance runners. The lead runner was finishing the race moments after I started, and I found myself on the track practically alone. It was dark, the stadium lights were glowing, and the cheers had come to a sudden hush. Inside at that moment I was laughing to myself that in my last high school race and I was going to come in last and get the pity clap, but I savored every moment of that last lap.

So my relay didn't make it to state, and I was D.E.A.D. last but I ran my fastest 400 ever and cherish that last lap more then any other running moment. It was just me against the track and I could have chosen to throw in the towel and but instead I chose to take that baton and run my heart out and leave it all on the track.


In the nine years since that night I have never ventured back to the track to run. I have always done my repeats by other unique methods, and I have just felt like my memory is too sacred to tarnish my good feelings. A few weeks ago I decided that it was time to make it back, and wanted tomorrows workout of 25x400's, at my projected 8k pace for the Shamrock Shuffle on April 10th, to be my first workout back on the track.


Nervousness is filling my heart not because I fear that this workout will get the best of me, but because I want my memories to be preserved and intact. Realistically after tomorrow will I forget about my experience 9 years ago? No. But my mind is crazy. This year my goal was to challenge myself and spice up my training, so that is my plan. Tomorrow I'm going to attack this workout and create a new chapter of memories for my adult life.

4 comments:

  1. thanks for stopping by my blog.

    good luck with the track! create a new great memory! gosh, maybe one day i will grow up and be a real runner who does repeats and track speed training! :) i just can't stomach that stuff though.

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  2. amazing!!! can't wait to hear the report back! the 400 was my race in H.S. too! love your blog - and are you running chi too this year??? i'm adding you to my blog roll :)

    xo. christine

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