Saturday, May 21, 2011

Time to Pump the Breaks

This weekend I think that I hit my limit, the much-feared-never-talked-about limit that we all have in life and pretend like we don't know about. I've been stretching myself rather thin lately, thinking that I possess these awesome super human powers and can handle anything and everything. Between maintain a marriage and household, working full time, focusing on my lofty career goals, trying to keep up with friends and family (failing at this miserably), studying for a certification that I wanted to take a long time ago and haven't yet found the time, trying to hold a running peak for longer then usual, and trying to keep my sanity is all just a tad bit to much.

When I was in college, I felt like I was super woman. I held down a full time job and full time course load where I would often run on 3 hours or less of sleep a night all while having a long distance relationship and an active social life, supporting myself financially, and having surprisingly stellar grades. How the heck did I do all this without ever feeling tired? I suppose being young, broke, and naive was enough fuel back then.


These days I take on way more then I can handle which makes me frustrating to work with, impossible to live with, and difficult to love. When I should be acknowledging that I simply cannot control everything and just need to let some things go, I instead decide to try to remain in control of everything and refuse to ask for help or take a pass on things. My body and mind are the biggest casualties of this these days. All rationality has been lost and I am one exhausted soul. On Saturday I thought that I could squeeze in one more quality 16 miler before the Soldier Field 10 Mile this coming Saturday, but there was no freaking way this was happening. I managed to somehow get my body to comply with 8 miles but they were definitely difficult, and really I would just like to forget about them. My ambition has far exceed my abilities since my half marathon, and I am awfully humbled by this. Why would I think that I could come off a hard efforted (is that even a word???) half in less then desirable weather conditions followed by a heavy mileage week and still feel strong and fresh? Mmmm, apparently I'm crazy and unfortunately have lost the super human powers I once possessed.

Priorities of washing my hair, flossing my teeth on a daily basis, washing my face before going to bed, shaving my legs, doing the laundry, emptying the dishwasher, keeping food in my house, brushing my dogs teeth, or even responding gently and kindly to others have all been flushed down the crapper. Basically I am sucking at being a responsible adult and a loving Christian these days, something for me to work on obviously. In the past 48 hours I have reminded myself countless times that the world does not revolve around my training schedule. I am blessed to have a husband who encourages my dreams to become reality, but learning that it is not all about me is so damn difficult for me.


This week is another taper week for me before Saturdays Soldier Field 10 Mile. I love this race, and I am super pumped for it mentally. Physically my body is a little over used from spending what has now become week 18 of goal orientated training this year. While I'm looking forward to this race, I am also looking forward to some much needed time off of running and work that I have coming up as well.

Monday: OFF
Tuesday: 5 easy miles
Wednesday: 6 miles with 3x1600's at 6:17, skipped this workout last week so I'm going to attempt to give it another go
Thursday: 5 easy miles
Friday: Off
Saturday: RACE!!!

15 comments:

  1. Hang in there! Such a challenge but that's what is so fun about life :)

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  2. If I had a dishwasher I wouldn't empty it either. Running is way more fun/important :)

    Good luck at your race this weekend!

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  3. best of luck this weekend. it really is so hard to balance everything. your raw honesty is refreshing!

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  4. Hi Britt! Reading this exhausted me - wow, your plate is full! I think the most important thing is to be sure that even if your plate is towering high, that it's foundation is firm. If the basics - your relationship with God, your husband and your health aren't nurtured then everything else is going to feel completely out of place and chaotic. I'm entering a SUPER busy season with work, fundraising before Uganda, Chicago training and it seems endless after work obligations...i'm already trying to prepare myself so I don't become overwhelmed! I hope you take some time to rest and recover, you surely deserve it!

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  5. "this too shall pass"

    Sounds like you just need a little break. I take little mini running breaks throughout the year and it helps to keep me from "burning out" and leaves me refreshed and ready for the next training mini cycle.

    Good Luck with the race! You will be ready!

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  6. Sometimes it's good to pump the breaks - it puts your life in check and reminds you that you are only human!

    Good luck on Saturday -- and most importantly, have fun :)

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  7. Sometimes we try to take on the world. I am guilty of this and luckily, my husband keeps me grounded. I don't always like it, but I know he's usually right when I am doing too much. It sounds like you need some well-needed rest. Don't worry, the world will keep spinning. ;)

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  8. I hear ya! Seriously I was the same way in college. Working, getting A's, no sleep.

    I guess we were young back then.

    HA!

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  9. I hear you! The week after a race, even if I feel great, it takes a little while to get my speed back on.

    I am exhausted and I found myself almost losing patience at work today...that's when I realized that it was time for a much needed vacation!!

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  10. I'm with you. I was getting that way over my last few weeks of training...running, work, trying to know what I'm doing at work, trying to plan a wedding, getting ready to move, trying to decide what I actually want to do with my life...once ONE of those was pushed to the backburner (running...hah), I'm taking on one challenge at a time. More manageable!

    Good luck with your race!

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  11. I love this post! This is what I needed.

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  12. You definitely deserve a break after your race (which you are going to kick butt at!)
    :)

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  13. Wowzer, this is a great post and I am TOTALLY relating to it! Not so much relating to the killer 1:32 in wind and the potential 6:17 repeats but all the other stuff-ha ha! Really though, you are amazing girl in so many ways!! Hope you totally ROCK it on Saturday-you WILL! Love the pics-you are in FANTASTIC shape:)

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  14. I can definitely say that I am guilty of this as well. Good luck in your race. Hopefully you can relax after the race

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