Tuesday, December 6, 2011

The "now what" edition of my life

So that's all folks for racing season 2011 in my neck of the woods. While Saturday's race wasn't a pivotal turning point for the year, it was a nice way to close out a successful year filled with more then my share of PR's and boatloads of gained perspective. This race was a far cry from all of the others that I fought for all year long. Months ago I wouldn't have even dreamed about toeing the line of a race and leaving anything less then my best on the course, but a lot has changed in me this year. I've come to realize that PR's are great but aren't a guarantee, and sometimes falling short of expectations can bring more enrichment into my life then any success.

When I could be annoyed with myself that I have had zero muscle soreness from this race, that I came in a mere 30 seconds behind the 1st place female, and that I really didn't push myself because I lacked all kinds of motivation...strangely I'm not. Instead I'm remembering the better parts of the day, like the warm up I did with my hubby and how he found a pair of my clean underwear static clung to the inside of his pants and how we spent the day playing with the Santa beard and decorating our Christmas tree.




We clean up pretty nice

So that's that for me for now. No big races on the radar anytime soon. NADA. Well, maybe not.

I haven't committed to anything as of yet for 2012 as my mind continues stirring with quite a bit of uncertainty as to what I'm going to tackle next. I have some goals that I'm ready to work towards and things I'm gung-ho about accomplishing, but no race plans. I desperately want to give the marathon another go this spring and have my eyes on a local race, but I also want to hit of the streets of my native land and do the Chicago marathon in the fall shooting to break 3:10 once again. But the hubby and I also want to start a family and not let our lives center around my training schedules, really it's not like I'm bringing in the big bucks with this hobby so I think that I could manage shelving it for a few months.

The icing on the cake gets thicker as in 2012 I'm going to be pressing hard in the entrepreneurial role and the hubby and I will be tightening the purse strings in order to save for a house. So looking ahead, 2012 looks sticky for me because I want to do it all. I want to be the successful fitness professional that keeps knocking out PR after PR while pregnant and saving for the house of my dreams but still manages to keep it all together and have time for my man and all of the other people and commitments in my life.

My little monkeys, Miles and Chase, have given me great baby practice. But I don't think that they are ready quite yet to share the spotlight.

I'm already familiar with bellytime

And they've given my biceps great practice as I often tote both of them around in my arms

Are my loosely bound dreams even realistic? How many 1:24 pregnant half marathon finishers have you seen in your life? I've seen zero, but my crazy mind still wants to think that its possible.

Better yet, is my body even ready to take on another marathon or...can't believe I'm saying this... childbearing? I don't know, but it's starting to get really old caring for it like its in a geriatric state.

12 comments:

  1. running just doesn't coincide with so many things in life beer, babies, etc (not listed in order of importance lol!) good luck balancing everything has you chase after your life goals! it can seem so large trying to plan these time frames!

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  2. 2012 IS going to be a great year for you and I love reading that you are thinking about baking a little bun in the oven :)

    It's great to plan and visualize ahead yet also be able to take life as it comes!

    If you DO run a race, it should def be Chicago and this time we will def have to meet up!

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  3. KIDS...ahhh you two will have the most beautiful babies, that is very very exciting!! I learned a lot this year regarding prs....just not possible to always get one and that is more than okay! There is so much more than running and I am so excited to see all of your other goals that you are chasing this next year!

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  4. I love your positive attitude about all of it. Here's to a stellar 2012. Don't sweat the child vs marathon vs career etc issues. It will all sort itself out. Life has a way of doing that.

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  5. Well, I think you can get it all. Think about it, every race you will run as a pregnant woman will be a PR!

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  6. I agree with Marcia - it will all sort itself out! And you know, there are a lot of pregnant runners. I bet you would be one of those people would would run the day before giving labor! :)

    Love your tree! And the fur babies :)

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  7. Most women are even faster after they have babies!!lol so maybe it will get u closer to those PRs:):) I can't wait for u to have babies, u will love it:)
    I have also learned alot since my injury about bein patient with my body and being grateful for all it can do when it is willing. I hope your body heals quickly and comes around again. Xxxx

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  8. I'm very much a "things will all work out" kinda gal. You may feel differently about running when you're pregnant - but it's not the end of the world. There will be running again and PRs!

    I completely feel you on the indecisiveness though. So much unknown -- but a lot to look forward to in 2012.

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  9. ahhh, you think so much -- you're definitely a planner. I have not one clue about, nor one devoted thought, to 2012. If 2012 is the year you become a mom, that would be amazing! I like when other friends/family become moms, because I don't have plans to ever be one....but I do like to see babies every now and again!

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  10. What a fun and exciting 2012! What ever happens (or doesn't happen) make sure you enjoy it! (At least that's the advice I give myself...and try to listen to...) Can't wait to hear how it goes!

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  11. Plan, but hold those plans loosely. From personal experience, the best-laid plans may be the last thing you want to follow when you find yourself holding your baby for the first time. Just be aware that as well as you know yourself, motherhood changes you more than you may anticipate. Not that you have to get fat and dumpy, because you certainly do not! But you may find that what drives you may shift.

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  12. oh my gosh, congrats on all the exciting 'what if's' in ur life. and even tho it might seem kinda scary, u should be excited that u really can do anything u want. i'd say just roll with it and take each day/opportunity as it comes. have fun with the running, but kno that there are bigger things too and taking a break for a baby i'm sure will be well worth it! hehe. plus, it's not like u'll be taking a total break, i have a sense u'll be setting some preggo mother records. :P

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