Sunday, April 29, 2012

A 5k DNF, but no hard feelings

"You can't always get what you want, but if you try sometimes you just might find you get what you need." 
The Rolling Stones
I'm no different then anyone else. I dream big, take bold chances, push the envelope, and make my fair share of mistakes. I'm human, which means that life is far from perfect for me and hosts just as many boastful moments as it does moments of sorrow. I don't think that I am any more fortunate then anyone else or that my life is filled with any greater blessings. I just try to take it all in stride not letting the slip-ups and short comings become the definition of who I am.

It has been just over 1 week since my unfortunate and unexplainable knee incident. While I would love to say that I have seen 100% improvement in the past 9 day, that would be a complete lie. The pain only lasted about 24 hours and was then followed up with quite a bit of tightness which I haven't yet been able to shake. My range of motion is limited right now, but the good news is that I'm not in any sort of pain. I've taken my mileage down quite a bit this week, took a few days off, and only allowed for 1 baby speed session this past Thursday.

The past 12 weeks have hosted quite a bulk of training for me. Most weeks mileage has been in the high 60's to low 70's with 2 speed sessions, 3 strength sessions, and anywhere from 1-3 yoga classes. Dialing up the intensity for this cycle is what I knew my body needed to get to that finish line for my May 20th half under 1:25, and most weeks my body has been wiling to comply until last Friday.

I'm not giving up.
I'm not throwing in the towel.
I'm not adjusting my goal.

There is never only one way to get to somewhere. In my heart I made a tenative plan of the route I wanted to travel along to get to my desired destination and haven't felt hell-bent on following this plan to a T. There will always be more then one way to get where you want to go, and recent events have made this very clear to me. My plan for the next few weeks is now null where each day has to be assessed delicately  to ensure that I'm taking proper care of myself.

Woke up this morning and headed out for an impromptu 5k where I was hoping to score a nice PR. But after a long warm up where the knee still wasn't feeling 100%, I begun to take a tight grip on the reality of my current situation.

I had two choices this morning:

Push through whatever that 5k handed me just for the sake of PR knowing that this could bring the possibility of doing irreversible damage. 

OR

Line up and take the race step by step, not committing to anything and pulling out if necessary.

Sadly, I took a DNF.

I pulled out of the race at the 2 mile marker with a 12:00 split, right on pace for a 18:30-40 finish. The legs felt great, strong enough to push me through to that finish line finally breaking 19 minutes. But the knee begun to feel creeky where just after mile 1 it almost felt as if two of the bones were rubbing against each other where the sensation had a slight increase with each step.

So I pulled out.

While the reality of this hurts my heart, I know that this was the most sensible decision I could have made for myself this morning. Honestly, I shouldn't have even toed that line and instead just headed out for a few easy miles this afternoon. But what's done is done.

Am I mad that I had that well below 19 minute 5k split within my reach and I had to let it go?
Yup.

BUT, there will be another 5k at another point in time where I'll give this a go while feeling 100% on my game.

Until then I just need to focus on maintaing my speed, strength, and endurance for the next few weeks while tending to my knee and moving on to plan B...which will be just as great.

That half marathon PR is still within my reach. I'm not losing hope. I'm not giving up.

23 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear about your pain, but kudos to you for giving it a shot in the first place, and pulling out when you realized it wouldn't have been smart to continue. There will be plenty of 5K's to do and you will get an awesome PR!

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    1. Thanks Maggie, there will always be another race. Just have to count my blessings until then.

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  2. I think you made a smart choice pulling out. There will always be another 5k. Fingers crossed that your knee returns to 100% soon so you can rock that half.

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  3. Britt, I know that must have been such a darn difficult decision. This just goes to show that your mind is so strong and smart and you did the right thing for your body....

    I'm so proud of you, because you never know what's possible unless you don't try! And you know that a sub 19 minute 5k is totally within your limits, if only that knee would cooperate! Sub 1:25 half, here you come :)

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  4. It sounds like you made the right call! I know you will crush your PR goals in the future. You are such an inspiration to me on a daily basis!

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  5. You're one smart cookie. The end.

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  6. I can't imagine how difficult it would have been to pull the plug on an awesome PR attempt, but you absolutely are so smart to do so. There will be other races where you will shine even brighter when you are 100%! Give that knee some TLC and a stern talking to- to show it who's boss! Hope you are beyond this knee issue soon.

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  7. Very smart decision. You will be more than happy about it when crossing the line for sub 1:25 PR on May 20!!!

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  8. Very, very smart decision. I know it stings a little, but like you said, this doesn't stop you from achieving your ultimate goal!

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  9. Britt, you continue to inspire me ;) Stop it! Just kidding :) Way to listen to your body. I hope that knee stops talking to you soon and lets you run on your merry way!

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  10. Oh boy. do I ever feel your pain. physically AND emotionally. hugs britt. in my mind, you DID run that 18:30 today b/c if you had a 12min 2mi split then HOLY CRAP girl! you're amazing! I have ZERO doubts that you will accomplish HUGE PR's this year!
    sure love you. you were smart....and that's hard to do..I know first hand but you listened to your body today and I'm glad you did. rest up girl!
    xxx

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    1. Great words Nicole. I agree, way to listen to your body Britt.

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  11. SO hard to do! Which makes me respect you all the more. You made a VERY wise decision, one that most of us would find nearly impossible to do. Now let's get this knee thing figured out!

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  12. Aww, sorry to hear about your knee, but you are right. There will be other races.

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  13. I would hope that if I were in your situation I would be able to make the smart decision like you did!(tough for sure) I have no doubt in my mind you will get that PR and race that half like a rock star! Staystrong!

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  14. Great post! You definitely made a wise decision!

    The twins believe there is nothing wrong with a DNF. Check out our post "We Need a Medal for Dropping Out" (written by Leah -> fast twin).

    My daughter and I (Malinda -> slow twin) were close to our first DNF's this morning at the Run for Babies 5K to benefit March of Dimes. We started off strong, but then my daughter started to feel sick. Runners kept passing us until we were the last 2 walking before the police car. My daughter was so sad that she started to cry. I told her, "We can stop or we can keep going - it's your choice." She wanted to keep going, so we did. We were the last 2 finishers. Yet, much to our surprise, my daughter won her age group since she was the only 9 year old! That was just the motivation she needed to boost her confidence to keep running! :-)

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  15. Man, this must have been hard. And I admire you for pulling the plug on the race bc I honestly don't think I could have done it, even though it was absolutely the right decision. One thing I do know. You will get that knee back on track and that sub 19 will be yours. There is no doubt in my mind that you are capable of a sub 19. You had a sub 19 split in your last race. Rest that knee and you will come back stronger. You are wise beyond your years Britt!

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  16. You did the RIGHT thing! It sounds like your larger goal is the half marathon right now - and if so don't mess up your chances for reaching that goal. Congrats on being smart!

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  17. From one Christian to another, I think you'd love BSF class (bsfinternational.org), if you're not in it already! Ignore the "lameness" of the website :P. This class is a life-changer, and worth a drive!
    :)

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    1. I've never heard of this, so thanks. Going to check it out now.

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  18. You did the smart thing by pulling out of the race and now you know you are more than capable of breaking 19 minutes. Keep babying that knee so you can reach your goal in the half!

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  19. I am so sorry about the knee pain, but it WILL heal in time for you to kill 1:25 in the half!!! I'm thinking you are ready for 1:23!
    seriously pulling out of the 5k shows how far you have come with listening/respecting/trusting your body!! You've got this running thing GOING ON Britt!!!
    Keep healing & trusting, you will be better in no time! :)
    I hope your week is off to a great start!
    xoxo!

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  20. So sorry to hear about your knee pain! Hope it gets better very soon!

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