Thursday, October 4, 2012

Am I really doing this...

There is always a point in time pre marathon when I have an odd moment of clarity where things finally start to click in my mind and I say to myself "am I really doing this?".

Today is that day.

Even while committing every weekend all summer long to hours and miles of running, registering 8 months ago for this race, and my inevitable doom now just a short 3 days away...it didn't really seem to click in my mind until this morning. Still as I sit here I don't really know if my mind is fully grasping the idea of running 26.2 miles in less than 72 hours, but it's happening!

Truthfully, the marathon isn't really for me. We aren't very great friends, and it's become more of a love to hate kind of relationship. Yet, I continue to sign up while completely aware of the fact that my body has successfully made it through only 1 marathon healthy and together always thinking "this will be the one where I finally do it right". Still waiting on that...

Weird groin muscle cramps in 2011


mental freak out in 2010, 

It's good that I can find humor in this now
dibilitaing knee distress in 2008


grossly hot temps in 2007, 

Didn't even finish that one
way under trained in 2006,

That was D's last marathon
This pic sums up perfectly how the race went for him
thought I was Kenyan in 2005,
Those are some real jacked up splits where I don't know what I was thinking for the 1st half.
I was not in 3:15 shape but I sure as hell went out of the gate as if I was.

and then there is that 1st marathon...

I was a bandit (whoops...cats out of the bag now), I hadn't done any speed work building up for it, my mind had no conception of what running 26.2 miles would feel like, but it was the time of my life and I finished in 3:28 with NO post race soreness. It was a hoot.

And here I sit pumping myself up to be pace keeper and motivator for the hubby for marathon finish #7 that is just a blink away where again I'm wondering why I ever thought paying $150 to run 26.2 miles would be fun. Who pays to run a distance they hate? Apparently I do.

Honestly I think this marathon is just what I need. I have no stress about the day, no concern as to what my finish time will be, and feel like it's just going to be 26.2 miles of bonding with my man and the city I love. 

Several people have mentioned that they are going to be out there on the course cheering, but my mind can't really remember where everyone said they will be. If you're spectating, let me know where you'll be so I can look out for you!

26 comments:

  1. I'm so excited for you and D. Perhaps having a fun and un-stressful marathon is just what you need? (Not sure if a marathon can ever be described as "fun")... I'll be at mile 17 (probably close by the mile marker sign) on the left/east side of the street in a yellow top! Hope to see you out there!!! :)

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    1. I'll be looking for you! I think I'll be in a bright purple long sleeved top. Mile 17 left side, got it!

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  2. Just pretend you're a bandit again and have a great race!

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    1. think there is something about being a bandit that gets the blood pumping a bit extra on race day...maybe knowing that you're technically breaking the law?

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  3. I'm trying to be as stress free as you are before Sunday morning. As they say, "The hay is in the barn". All of our training is done, and the only thing to do is go out and run a smart race and see what happens. If the stars align then my finish time will be good, if not, it was not meant to be. You can't p.r. every race, but you can have fun most of the time!

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    1. Sounds like you've got the right attitude Pete! PR's are overrated ;)

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  4. I am a glass is half full type of guy and really think that you're going to have a blast! Plus, it is better to have these thoughts now rather than at mile 17!

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  5. You have done amaaazing preparation for this marathon. Your body is ready. Now it's just all mental and you have got it, I know it.

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  6. I'll be running too and it's my first! You will do great! Just go out and enjoy yourself :)

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  7. I'm manning an aid station at mile 18. I'll probably be wearing some kind of ugly vest over the ubiquitous blue jacket. I'm thinking of tying a balloon to my ponytail so people know where I am!

    Running a marathon with someone else will be a completely different experience for you! Looking forward to your post-marathon thoughts.

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  8. Good luck to you and all the other runner. So stoked for everyone who will be taking on such a huge challenge. I'll be at Aid Station 2 cheering you on and handing out waters. Make it fun :)

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  9. Good luck on Sunday! I will be helping out at Erin's aid station at mile 18! I will keep my eyes out for you! Hope you enjoy this one!!

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  10. Best of luck at the race! There's something so liberating about being able to let go of the stress. Pacing your husband will be a great experience!

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  11. Perhaps this marathon will reignite your passion for the 26.2- after all the stress is off and you get to run with your best friend through this amazing city in possibly the best temps this race has seen in a while :) I'm so exited for this race, but hasn't hit me that it's less than 72 hours away as you so eloquently mentioned above.

    Good luck to you and D this Sunday!!

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  12. Brit0
    You're a wonderful inspiration for all levels of running. I truly enjoyed the talk on the train ride back to the burbs. I know you and Doug will do great!!!! Run strong and relax :)

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  13. What a long line of Chicagos! I ran in 07 and 10 and vow no more as I think I'm the heat jinx. I'll be at mile 14 in the Lupus Charity tent (purple w/big butterfly). All the best to you and D! Enjoy!

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  14. This was a great post and a great way to look back! For the record, I think you're pretty damn close to Kenyan anyhow! Best of luck and enjoy the day!!

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  15. The weather sounds like it's going to be perfect for a race (high 40s, low 50s), so I think you will set a PR on raceday. And I think D will crush it as well. Enjoy the day!

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    1. Thanks Nelly, I'm not actually going for a PR. Maybe next time ;)

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  16. Best of luck to you and your man. You guys are gonna rock it.

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  17. You are such an inspiration to keep pushing yourself. I look up to you GREATLY. Good luck to you and your hubby on Sunday! xoxo

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  18. Have a great time! I'll be at aid station 2 (mile 3), mile 12, and then 22 or 23. I'll be cheering for you!

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  19. there is someone else that has a notoriously fickle relationship with the marathon and his name is Dathan Ritz...so at least u're in good company! ;) seriously though, u will kick @$$!! regardless of the outcome i kno u'll give it ur all (don't worry we all have mental freakouts at some point! but we move past them) and that's all u can ask for in such a long race. i'll be thinking of u girl and WISH i could be there cheering! :)

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  20. I hear you, I have a problem with pressure and don't do well with it. My best races are the ones I think I'm under-trained and just run for fun. Good luck tomorrow!!

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