Monday, January 7, 2013

Twenty 12, relived through running

"The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph. What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly; it is dearness only that gives everything its value. I love the man that can smile in trouble, that can gather strength from distress and grow brave by reflection."
-Thomas Paine 
At first glance back, some years can seem perfectly flawless. Events play out as anticipated, goals become obnoxiously attainable, and setbacks only fuel the desire to push harder than before. For me, I was lucky enough to have a year like that in 2011 which has left my heart with the odd year itch.

2012 wasn't that flawless year for me, instead it was the year that I beat myself into the ground while blindly moving ahead with my foot floored on the gas pedal. Battered and beaten, I've continued moving forward embracing the fact that I'm human. I'm fragile. And that my mistakes will only show me as much as my heart is willing to learn.

The year hosted a few wins, 

even more losses with quite a few moments where the strength of my character was tested...most of which I failed miserably,

and plenty of sweet sweet moments that will forever out shadow the glory of any PR, clock time, or split.

It also became the year of rubbing elbows with the elite crowd.

The ever sweet Deena Kastor

The very humble Abdi Adirahman

And the legend himself, Mr. Frank Shorter

Wins, losses, missteps, short-coming...they are all the same at this point. 
The past is the past and will only be as valuable as the heart allows.

I may have come up short on countless goals for 2012. Fallen on my face multiple times. Failed. Succeeded. Moved on. And now I'm here, ready to carry on and plow through the next adventures that life has planned. Head held high, heart strong as ever, and little to no expectations.

May my past be the sound of my feet upon the ground.
Time to carry on.


  1. By your pictures, it looks like you had an awesome year! I would say half of my races in 2012 were fails and the other half were successes. 50% ain't bad. Some of the fails were weather-related (i.e. out of my control), so I have to put them in perspective. Anyway, I am reading a book about Steve Prefontaine. Frank Shorter was his friend, training partner and one of the last 2 people to see him alive. It would have been awesome to meet him. Good luck in 2013!

  2. What a great reflection for the year. I love reading your posts as I really like how you put things in perspective. Despite not meeting everything you wanted to, it looks like you still had a great year! I'm looking forward to see what you do in 2013! :)

  3. I think you had a great year!! We're always so hard on ourselves... :) Wow, lots of celebrity run-ins!

  4. Despite some setbacks, you had a marvelous year friend. Meeting all those running celebs, just amazing! Oh, and don't forget your coaching "win" with my massive PR in Fox Valley. :) I NEVER could have pulled off something like that without your guidance and encouragement. I'm really excited to see what's in store for you in 2013!

  5. Awesome self reflection - its our downs as much as our ups that make us who we are. 2012 made you grow as a person and a runner whether or not your goals were achieved - can't wait to see how you move into 2013!!

  6. Great post looking at the highs and lows--which in the end, show up to me as a big high. I think your year was awesome and I can't wait to see what you do in 2013!

  7. You have a great blog! Congratulations on a wonderful 2012.

  8. Great pictures! It was definitely an interesting year for you. I can't wait to see what 2013 holds.

  9. I agree with Pete (commenter from above) that getting a 50% success rate I'm running is great! Weather, alone, takes out a quarter of races. Then if you had injury on top of that... I am not ever saying that to make excuses, but rather to point out that running (and life) is unpredictable.

  10. Love it - cheers to an exciting 2013 and all it will bring.