Some races are more difficult than others to wrap the head around.
This 5k was one of those races.
The long and short of it is simple...
races are hard when you're in shape but even harder when your mind is completely and entirely out of shape.
And my mind is a million miles away from feeling fast and confident when pushed to the limit.
As I stood on the line next this this speedy lady, my head was kind of just blank.
"There are people who have no bodies, only heads. And many athletes have no heads, only bodies. A champion is a man who has trained his body and his mind, who has learned to conquer pain for his own purposes. A great athlete is at peace with himself and at peace with the world; he has fulfilled himself. He envies nobody. Wars are caused by people who have not fulfilled themselves."Coach Sam Dee
There certainly was a war going on inside of me.
You do what you can on race day, take what your body and mind are willing to give, enjoy the experience with some cool peeps, and move forward with what you're willing to take from the experience.
Then do it all again.
|Photo courtesy Sara|
|Photo courtesy Maggie|
Think I finished in 19:22 for 2nd place female by a minute from the lead woman.
Not my best 5k, but by no means my worst.
The course was kind of wonky, I never started my watch and ran rather erratic splits, let myself slip off into a no-mans-land when my mind started to stray, had to talk myself out of pulling out of the race entirely for most of the last mile, and waited around for what seemed like years afterwards for the award ceremony that never seemed to happen.
But I would do it all again in a heartbeat.
And after all, there will always be another race on another day at another point in time when events have the slightest glimmer of hope of unfolding differently. It's what keeps me coming back for more.